My Remorse

My Remorse

I lay down with my eyes wide open

Thinking about the things that happen often;

Then I start to wonder

There is something to ponder.

I stare at the ceiling

And I lose myself in a feeling;

To my mind I ask

Have I failed to do my task?

Now I try to recapture

About the reasons for the fracture;

Things that let me down

That made me forever frown.

People tell me I’m kind

Also I lose my mind;

They say I’m helpful

And also I’m playful.

Well, I do regret

For making people forget,

For breaking relationship

And for losing friendship.

There are moments I fought

Is it because I care a lot?

I’m always hated

That makes me frustrated.

They say I’m unlike

Is that the only reason not to like?

I’ve been through hardship

Feel like I’m in a warship.

I wanna shine

I wanna leave a mark of mine;

I see myself scream

But that was just another dream.

Reflecting on the past

Things I need to do are vast;

Now I close my eyes

With a determination to improvise.